全新的我

huhu~~ finally i finished my mid sem exam dy... but i know i do very badly in tis time exam, mayb coz of last minutes preparing... haha~ after exam, i feel my whole body like become very light dy... haha~ mayb 2 nervous o scare gua... i oso didnt sleep well during tis week, so tis few day i hv 2 sleep till very late....!! mwuahaha~~~

after go out from exam hall, lixuan, viola, guantee n me plan wan 2 go whr... after discussing, v decide go berry passion wait for shumin 2 go cut hair 2gather... v plan since be4 exam dy n now finally decide go cut... after eat n chit chat, 5 of us walk from 1 shop 2 1 shop 2 compare which hair shop is more nicer... finally v go in a shop which look like 家庭式 hair shop... me n lixuan cut 1st then shumin turn... viola help design my hair style n she wan me cut till very short but i disagree coz i like long hair most~ haha... after cutting, every1 look very surprise...!!! they said i become more nicer n younger......!!! haha.... not me 自夸 o~ is every1 said de oo.... haha... but it cost RM42 leh... so expensive.....!!!

change alot???

look from behind...

after cutting, 5 of us go sunway shopping n eat alot... haha~~ 5 of us finished 4 plate of big set BBQ, its really 夸张... n i really very full lo~~ after eatting, v go for shopping..... coz viola said she wan help me 大改造, so v go many shop n try alot of clothes..... finally i oso buy a shirt.... quite nice oso but gt abit expensive lah, RM 49.90, is RM50 leh.... but i long time buy once so i think is ok lah...... hahaha~~

around 10pm like tat v bc home liao.... although gt abit tired, but i really enjoy 2day~~ hehe.....

start from 2day, i will learn how 2 打扮.... mean how 2 wear clothes n make myself look more nicer.... =) hehe... coz evey1 is changing now n me oso dun wan left behind... tis oso influence by viola n lixuan they all.... but anyway, i oso hv 2 thx 2 viola for her helping n lixuan oso...... thx alot ya........!!!! =)

mid-sem exam week

here i coming... since every1 keep saying i seldom update my blog, then now i coming 2 sweep d floor 1st.... wahaha...

2day i start my mid sem exam dy... i slept till 11++... haha... but i didnt sleep well since shumin wake up... dun know y... wake up every half an hr till 11am n hv a lot of bad dream... mayb is a sign tat i will do badly in my exam... haha... tis morning met wif viola they all, they said my eye 肿到很惨, panda eye oso very big... i think mayb of tis few week i always sleep late... hv 2 sleep early start from now... but i think i will just do it after my exam... muahahah.....!!

2day paper is english, just 1 hr n need finish 2 reading n 1 essay within d time... it is hard for me... i just finish it exactly on time but just simply answer... after exam discuss wif lixuan they all n found tat all d answer r wrong......!!! i think i will die, dun know whether i can pass tis paper o not... i hope dun wan same as sem 1, tat time i fail my english paper when mid sem oso.. =( but it is over, dun think abt it again...

2moro is accounting, i think i oso can die in tis paper coz i didnt understand wat teacher teaching... i just depend when tutorial class n my own understanding... but i oso hv ask for lixuan help... accounting oso need 2 finish 4 part within an hr... if gt stuck at 1 part, other i think no need 2 think abt it liao... so 2day need 2 put more hardwork on it... i know it is 2 late for me 2 start study for my 2moro paper... but i will try my best 2 do it well... now i hv 2 take my outlook out for my own self... "dun regret wat u hv done, just try for ur best" i just can blame myself... as my sister mention, i really hv 2 change my bad habits dy... i will try my best 2 change it lah... hehe....

i hope tis exam can faster finish even just remain 3 day... after exam i wan sleep from 10pm till morning 10am++... muahaha...!!! n gt bc all my energy 2 fight for my final... hope final wont same as now again... if u all found i lazy again, plsss scold me o beat me o force me o do anything oso can 2 make me put more effort on my study... anything oso can, as long as i can study hard n dun b lazy again.............!!!!!!!!

lost direction

1 month didnt come here dy.... between tis 1 month, many things happen 2 me... n disturb all my life.... till now i still bother wif my course... i dun know wat course should i take... i oso always thinking tat m i wrong i choose business tis ways??? m i suitable study business?? now gt a bit regret y when secondary school i cant mature a bit n start think n plan for my future???

now all my frens keep talking tat i not suitable for business, when beginning i choose business is d wrong decision n tis n tat.... tis make me more confuse abt it... actually in my mind, i wan study in business course, onli d problem is i dun know which subjuect should i take... now in my mind, i hv 3 choice, marketting, admin o finance... i dun know i interest in wat sub n suitable for wat sub...

besides tis problem, in tis month, still gt another new thing happen 2 me... onli my geng n he know... but d most bother i had face it is something like i tell he be4... i think everyone know he means who gua... i know u oso hv come 2 my blog n read it... as i tell u be4, i not blame u come into my life, i just feel tat it happen 2 fast dy... dun u feel 2??? i ask u tis question be4 oso, u said not, but for me is 2 fast, mayb be4 i didnt face tis problem so need some time 2 digest it... but i think now is getting better dy... =) i oso feel very happy when go out wif u... i hope v will be always in good situation n dun wan hv any quarrel but i dun think so v will not quarrel... but i still hope it... i oso hope i can gv u d best n make u happy... i scare i cant do it well but i will try my best... =)

2 week later is my mid term dy... havent do anything yet... now oso bother wif my assignment... dun know how 2 do... group member oso didnt cooperate especially ECS... hv 2 do by my own... my accounting individual assignment oso havent touch it... dun know how 2 start it... hope somebody can help me...

hope i can settle all my problem... n both of us will b always happy n just b urself, dun 2 nervous... i know u very nervous when wif me... just relax, if u like tat, it will make whole situation become very weird... hope it can getting better...

PLKN Kem Guar Chenderai 一周年纪念

时间过得好快哦~ 去年的今天是我进国民服务的一天... 回想起来还真不舍得哦~~ 想当初，在要进营的前几个星期就开始筹备着了，当时的心情就好紧张哦，不知营里会是怎样的一个地方，而且还是第一次离开家那么久... 不过我也是蛮期待那天的到来~

去年的昨天晚上因兴奋过度，无法入眠... 早上也是七早八早就起身准备了~ 那时也想幸好乃馨和我是同一个营，如果不是，我不知该如何是好... 当天早上，我在集合的时间早到了半小时，当时乃馨也还没到，就自己先去报到了~ 过不久乃馨也跟着来了... 人潮也越来越多，大家都来送自己的儿子，女儿或是亲戚朋友上巴士，实在有够多人的了~ 巴士要走之前，还看到许多人在掉眼泪，也许我巴不得想离开家独自生活吧，所以这种分离对我来说没什么~~

巴士大约走了六个小时才到达玻璃市的营~ 一下巴士感觉还不错... 整个营都是被橡胶园包围着，地方也蛮大的... 拿了行李，大家就到营里报到去了~ 我们也就跟着大家一起走咯... 报完名后，又要检查行李，因为怕有危险物品~ 我的行李还被教官说是来这里开杂货店的吗，回想起来还真好笑~！！！ 过后就回自己的房间啦~ 我被分到 P4，也就是第四间房间咯~ 一进到里面，就看到好矮的床哦... 好小的橱哦... 原来参加国民服务是这种感觉的啊~

开始四天都没什么活动，只是要拿制服之类的东西而已~ 过后训练也开始啦~ 一开始觉得还蛮累的，有点喘不过气来，不过久后就觉得挺好玩的，还可以认识到一大班好友，大家一起玩，一起笑，一起受罚，蛮开心的~~~ 途中，有些因为要读中六或 matric 的就提早离开营了~ 当时，大家都很不舍得，每个人都哭得稀里哗啦的，当然，我也不例外啦~ 剩下最后三个星期时，华人女生就只剩下十个人而已，而男生也只剩下不超过十人，所以大家都互相帮助，坚持到最后~ 6 月 7 日，也就是我们离开营的那一天，大家也都依依不舍的告别~~

今天，也就是进营的一周年纪念，大家都没忘记彼此，互相传简讯祝贺，希望友谊永固~~ 我也不后悔去参加了国民服务，它让我学习到了许多东西，也教会了我许多事情，也认识到了很多朋友~~ 希望大家不会忘记在营里面的点点滴滴，把美好的事情永记在心里~！！！

P4 - 我的dom~

miss the happy hour~

i performance 'silat'

boys n girls~

chinese girls~

my roomates

actually v hv our punishment on tat day~

v go 2 penang when camp holiday~

sir wif all of us~

last night in the camp~

sem 3 start soon

huhu... 今天终于回 subang 咯~ 自己一个人提着大包小包的回到这里了... 这又表示又要开学了~ 这是基础班的最后一个学期了，应该好好的努力了~ 第二学期的成绩虽然通过了，但是还不满，这学期应该加油咯~

在回来的路上接到了 Raymond 的电话~ 他说，他转去第四班读了... 这消息对我来说真是晴天霹雳，毕竟平常我都和他一起吃午餐，聊天，做功课，渐渐的都习惯有他的陪伴~ 现在他突然转班，感觉上好像少了一样东西似的~ 可能是我太过依赖他吧... 什么事都是由他来帮我做，渐渐的就习惯了他的帮忙~

现在，在班上好像只剩下我一个人而已，Raymond 换班了，我又和其他同学不熟，不知该怎么办才好呢~？？？ haiz...... 好景不长在啊~ 我想现在应该是老天安排给我的考验吧... 如果是，那就应该好好的接受这考验吧... 当初也我不就是为了考验自己，挑战自己，才答应爸妈来泰来学院就读的嘛~~~

现在不想那么多了，我有更重要的任务在身，那就是把书读好~！！希望这一切都能顺顺利利的完成，考出不错的成绩来~~~！！！

战争

今天已是第四天没和爸爸说话了… 只因为那天晚上上网至十二点多，他就在那边骂来骂去的，人家又不是每一天晚上都如此，偶尔久久才一次罢了嘛…. 而且会上网到那么迟是因为朋友都有上网嘛，只是和他们一起聊聊天，如果连这也不能，那干脆下次就不回家了~

我知道你是为我好，早睡早起身体好，迟睡变成熊猫眼，但是我又不是不睡觉，只是迟了一点点而已嘛~ 你也知道我每次回家都没有朋友可以一起出来玩，所以只好上网找朋友聊天罢了嘛，人家也会觉得很无聊的嘛，不然回家就只是吃，睡，看戏… 你们都说回家就是休息，但是偶尔也可以和朋友聊天嘛… 人家有时只是聊到忘了时间，但也只是才十二点多而已嘛… 那么介意做什么？？ 你也不是没有年轻过嘛~

我本身自己知道，从小就和你们有很大的鸿沟，人家只是不懂得如何把感情表现出来而已嘛~ 我只是选择了另一种方法，默默地去关心你们，爱你们，难道我的方法错了吗？？？ 难道不善于表达也是我的错？？？ 我知道这是我的缺点，我也已慢慢的在改进，再找出另一种你我都能适应的方法，但是那时需要时间的嘛~

想当初，我连一句“谢谢”或“对不起”都不敢对家人或朋友说，我还是在乃馨的鼓励下才说出了“谢谢”，一声“对不起”到现在我还是不敢的去表达… 这些字对我来说似乎很陌生，感觉说了会很肉麻，但是我也已经在改善了嘛~

昨天晚上睡觉前，静静地躺在床上，想了很多事情，眼泪也一次又一次的流了出来，难道你以为每一次和你们吵架后我都没感觉吗？我只是选择把它收起来，我也知道你们也很伤心，但是你们有时也要站在我的立场为我想一想，我只是觉得我的想法，道理都没错而已，我也只是在坚持着我的看法而已，难道你们就不能为我想一想吗？？我知道你们一定会说，你还小，经验不足，应该听父母的，但是我们身为小孩的也有我们发言的时候吧？？？ 我记得你和我说过，父母应该与孩子做朋友而不是父母，那当你在教训我时，你也有在想为何我会有这样的看法吗？？？

每一次看到朋友与他们的父母关系非常好，我都很羡慕他们, 羡慕他们有父母陪他们一起看电视，逛街，玩耍，聊心事~ 而我现在也在尝试改善与你们的鸿沟，只是不善于表达的我不知该如何是好而已… : (

希望这次的“战争”能尽快结束吧~

生日快乐~

生日快乐~~ happy birthday~~

又老一岁了... 每当过生日，一定会想起，长大了，是时候成熟了... 每年都有一样的想法，结果到头来还不是那样子... 似乎永远都没改变~~~

不说这些了，今天生日，应该谈点别的...

昨天七早八早就上网为自己倒数了~ 哈哈！！！ 脸皮还真厚~ 一到了十二点，莉暄就第一个 sms 来啦~~~ 接下来就轮到何紫铃，然后是 mashi feiro 咯~~前三名都被他们抢走啦，哈哈~！接着就是姐姐和哥哥，颖泰，德广，viola，斌晟，臣勇.... 早上起来就接了几通祝福的电话咯，有 selven，乃馨，建明，dhurai... 下午又收到清凤，慧均，恩妮 Annie，仕霖，秋慧的 sms 和欣仪的祝福电话咯~

刚刚也上了 facebook 和 freindster，很多朋友都留言啦... 其中有 Raymond，Yee Sin，Shinji，Carmen，Kai Loon，Chen An，kon，chloe，书敏，乃杰，慧婷，还有茹蕙，Jason，秋伟，还有很多很多的祝福~

虽然今年没收到生日礼物，但却收到了很多祝福~~！！！ 有小学的朋友，中学的朋友，国民服务的朋友，还有学院的朋友... 谢谢你们哦~~~

希望在这第 19 年里能过得开开心心，一切顺顺利利，也希望所有的愿望都能成真~~~！！！