战争

今天已是第四天没和爸爸说话了… 只因为那天晚上上网至十二点多，他就在那边骂来骂去的，人家又不是每一天晚上都如此，偶尔久久才一次罢了嘛…. 而且会上网到那么迟是因为朋友都有上网嘛，只是和他们一起聊聊天，如果连这也不能，那干脆下次就不回家了~

我知道你是为我好，早睡早起身体好，迟睡变成熊猫眼，但是我又不是不睡觉，只是迟了一点点而已嘛~ 你也知道我每次回家都没有朋友可以一起出来玩，所以只好上网找朋友聊天罢了嘛，人家也会觉得很无聊的嘛，不然回家就只是吃，睡，看戏… 你们都说回家就是休息，但是偶尔也可以和朋友聊天嘛… 人家有时只是聊到忘了时间，但也只是才十二点多而已嘛… 那么介意做什么？？ 你也不是没有年轻过嘛~

我本身自己知道，从小就和你们有很大的鸿沟，人家只是不懂得如何把感情表现出来而已嘛~ 我只是选择了另一种方法，默默地去关心你们，爱你们，难道我的方法错了吗？？？ 难道不善于表达也是我的错？？？ 我知道这是我的缺点，我也已慢慢的在改进，再找出另一种你我都能适应的方法，但是那时需要时间的嘛~

想当初，我连一句“谢谢”或“对不起”都不敢对家人或朋友说，我还是在乃馨的鼓励下才说出了“谢谢”，一声“对不起”到现在我还是不敢的去表达… 这些字对我来说似乎很陌生，感觉说了会很肉麻，但是我也已经在改善了嘛~

昨天晚上睡觉前，静静地躺在床上，想了很多事情，眼泪也一次又一次的流了出来，难道你以为每一次和你们吵架后我都没感觉吗？我只是选择把它收起来，我也知道你们也很伤心，但是你们有时也要站在我的立场为我想一想，我只是觉得我的想法，道理都没错而已，我也只是在坚持着我的看法而已，难道你们就不能为我想一想吗？？我知道你们一定会说，你还小，经验不足，应该听父母的，但是我们身为小孩的也有我们发言的时候吧？？？ 我记得你和我说过，父母应该与孩子做朋友而不是父母，那当你在教训我时，你也有在想为何我会有这样的看法吗？？？

每一次看到朋友与他们的父母关系非常好，我都很羡慕他们, 羡慕他们有父母陪他们一起看电视，逛街，玩耍，聊心事~ 而我现在也在尝试改善与你们的鸿沟，只是不善于表达的我不知该如何是好而已… : (

希望这次的“战争”能尽快结束吧~

生日快乐~

生日快乐~~ happy birthday~~

又老一岁了... 每当过生日，一定会想起，长大了，是时候成熟了... 每年都有一样的想法，结果到头来还不是那样子... 似乎永远都没改变~~~

不说这些了，今天生日，应该谈点别的...

昨天七早八早就上网为自己倒数了~ 哈哈！！！ 脸皮还真厚~ 一到了十二点，莉暄就第一个 sms 来啦~~~ 接下来就轮到何紫铃，然后是 mashi feiro 咯~~前三名都被他们抢走啦，哈哈~！接着就是姐姐和哥哥，颖泰，德广，viola，斌晟，臣勇.... 早上起来就接了几通祝福的电话咯，有 selven，乃馨，建明，dhurai... 下午又收到清凤，慧均，恩妮 Annie，仕霖，秋慧的 sms 和欣仪的祝福电话咯~

刚刚也上了 facebook 和 freindster，很多朋友都留言啦... 其中有 Raymond，Yee Sin，Shinji，Carmen，Kai Loon，Chen An，kon，chloe，书敏，乃杰，慧婷，还有茹蕙，Jason，秋伟，还有很多很多的祝福~

虽然今年没收到生日礼物，但却收到了很多祝福~~！！！ 有小学的朋友，中学的朋友，国民服务的朋友，还有学院的朋友... 谢谢你们哦~~~

希望在这第 19 年里能过得开开心心，一切顺顺利利，也希望所有的愿望都能成真~~~！！！

重返校园

今天早上，去了中学母校 SMK Pantai Remis 一趟，为了拿 SPM 真正的文凭... 一进到校园，就感受到那已不再是以前的校园了... 有一股陌生感袭击而来，感觉真不自在~~~

一下了摩托，感觉学校的次序好乱哦... 不知是否因为今天是课外活动，还是因为巡查员不再像以前那样了... 想起当年当巡查员时，学长学姐哪可让我们管理到如此遭呢？？？ 而轮到我那一届当学长学姐时，次序也哪有如此的乱？？？ haiz.... 没脸再继续关心他们了....

进到办公室，还是和以前一样，只是一些新来的老师不认得而已... 我还遇到以前教我的马来文老师，Cikgu Muslim，没想到他还认得我~！！！ 老师还到处跟其他老师说，以前那个 khen pey 呀，当巡查员的，她变了很多，变漂亮了~！！ haha~~~ 当时听了还暗爽一下~ haha~~~ 我们只聊了一下，刚好那时开始上课了，我也拿了文凭就走人了....

现在想一想，时间真的不留人！！！ 就像回到中学母校看看，感觉我已是老一辈的人了，该让新人来接管了，是时候放手了，该继续往前走了，不再留恋了~~~每个人都有属于他们自己的路要走，是该好好的想一想，为自己的将来做打算了...

路，是一定要走的，只是看自己如何操控它而已~~~

bc hometown

start my sem break edi~~~ yesterday just bc from subang... tis is my 1st time without ppl accompany me go 2 pudu n take bus bc 2 hometown... feel little afraid coz scared will take wrong bus o be late reach at pudu, but lucky all r perfect~~ hoho...

abt 3.30 pm reach sitiawan edi... so fast~ bus drive drive very fast so tat can reach earlier. usually need abt 4 hour just can reach at sitiawan... on d way bc from pudu, i chat wif mashi feiro, so tat i dun feel very bored... haha~~~!!!

after reach sitiawan, then bc 2 pantai remis. reach home clean up my things n rest. after 1 hour me n my parent go out again~~ v go 2 parit buntar wif my aunty n uncle 2 eat dinner... after tat, v go 2 taiping 2gather 2 c wild pig. i c be4 but i heard my parent said if u touch d pig u will kena 4D... when i heard i dun believe hv tis kind things coz if u kena 4D then every1 will go touch d pig n no need go 2 work again loh... everyone will become rich liao loh... haiz... dun know how they think de... but when v reach there, suddenly hv a heavy rain~~~ me n father faster run in2 car but d other run 2 other place... after waiting mother n aunty n uncle come then v bc again... reach home oso 10 pm edi... it look like i sit for abt 12 hr!!! it can reach until uk edi!!! haha.... n very tired oso...

n now 2day whole day nothing 2 do... just sleep n watch movie... now i chat wif mashi feiro... he make me angry!!! i will not forgive him~~!!! hahahaha.... now become a habit chat wif him coz v chat every day when i on9... haiz... need 2 change edi... but it is nice coz every time nobody chat wif me onli him accompany me... dun know wat should i do... : s

p/s: wish carmen happy birthday 2day.

last three week

here i bc~~~ after my last two post, i stop come here for a long time... in last three week, i quite busy, many things 2 do~~ now let me continue d last two post...

as i mention, i pass my cny happyly coz my sister bc edi... on 2 n 3 feb, i take a leave for not go 2 school coz on monday is cny big festival which is “拜天宫”. tat day at my hometown r very jollification coz everyone play firework n very noisy. tis festival is more important for hokkien ppl... so, my family prepare many food... coz i think v did not celebrate tis festival wif whole family for abt 6 - 7 year edi~~ every year onli me alone wif perant. tis year sister n brother bc so can celebrate 2gather...!!!

wau~~

three of us wear football shirt~

after tis i bc 2 subang on tuesday n continue my 2nd sem... it quite busy coz as i bc, there r a lot of assignment wait me 2 do!!!! i busy do my assignment everyday... lucky my english n malysain studies hv raymond n li xuan they all help me... for business computing coz i different group wif raymond so i hv 2 do myself~~ my group member r wan oi n ka wai... so i hv 2 try 2 cooperative wif them coz be4 i nv same group wif other ppl except raymond n alvin (when in 1st sem) hoho... wan oi n ka wai oso gt help but wan oi help more than ka wai lah... me n wan oi keep do n do... haiz... it look like assignment won't do finish de~~!!! but at last v oso pass up successfully n get d highest mark!!!! v get 12 out of 15!!! when i saw my mark i feel very happy coz i do it without any person's help!!!

after busy finish my assignment, it's turn 2 busy for our presentation edi~~~ tis time presentation, i did not do well in three subject oso... i oso did not know y like tat~ mayb i haven prepare well?? but i will try my best in my next sem.

4 of us~~

after presentation, final exam turn!!! i study n study every day but cann't keep in mind. it make me no more mood 2 continue 2 study edi. but i oso have 2 study it... haiz... when study, i still facebooking!!! tis is d worst thing!!! i can't change my attitude for not playing... but for tis time final exam i try my best edi... n now final is over~~~

2day is friday, i haven bc 2 hometown.. i choose bc on sunday coz i think when i bc hometown oso nothing 2 do... all my frens oso haven bc.. si i decide stay at here for 2 more days n on9 n watch movie... hahaha~~

tat's all for my pass three week...

thx to all u guys~~!!!

long time did come here edi... coz tis few week quite busy n 2day i just finish my 2nd sem final exam~~!!! hoho~~ yeah!!! last three week news i will post later by as soon as possible...(c my mood 1st lah, haha...). now v start our sem break edi but just onli 2 weeks, not shuok oso...

2day my fren celebrate my birthday for me. actually my birthday is on 6 march, but at tat time is our sem break, so they choose 2 celebrate 2day... thxs for u all again~~ at 1st, i edi forgot abt tis thing, coz be4 they said wan 2 celebrate wif me but coz of tis few week very busy so i forgot abt it edi... but all must thx 2 shu min who "remind" me (viola dun angry wif her coz she oso dun wan de)... coz of tis i just remember it... hahaha~~~ after tat, i just c n wait for their action coz i wan 2 know how they gv me surprise~~~

2day after finish our last paper exam (malaysian studies), v all said go 2 sing k~~ (v discuss it be4 but i just think is normal singing n celebrate 4 finish our exam). then, v wait 4 raymond car 2 fecth us go 2 neway (me, lixuan, chloe n yeng sit raymond car) n viola n guantee they go themselves. they wait for us go then they just leave. i did not think 2 much. then, v have our happy hour~~!!! i force by them sing n sing again but i dun know how 2 sing oso... all my key totally change!!!

at d middle, suddenly the happy birthday song come out~~ then i just think mayb they just wan 2 sing a birthday song 2 me like tat coz i know their motive edi (celebrate wif me)... then suddenly d worker of d neway come in n bring 2gather wif a CAKE!!!! i feel very shock n surprise!!! at tat time, my heart oso stop for a moment!!! IT DID NOT FUNCTION!!!! then i just realise tis is d surprise tat they wan gv 2 me!!!!! omg~~!!! then they sing d birthday song 2 me... after tat i make a wish n blew d candle. till d time for everyone 2 PLAY me!!! they broke d candle into 2 to make it shorter n call me 2 bite it~~ tat ok coz tis thing all d birthday person will do it. at d same time i oso know tat they will push my head 2 d cake. i oso dun care coz be4 i nv do tis by other ppl. haha.... at d moment i bite, viola push deeply my head 2 d cake!!! ohhh.. my face is full of CREAM!!! then they just keep 2 take photo of me!!! after tat v eat cake n continue 2 sing k~~ hoho~~!! v get more high n high~~!! v all sing untill stand up n DANCE!!! all r hyper edi~~!! hoho...

at abt 3.30 pm, v finish our k edi... n bc home loh... v all very happy n ENJOY~~!!! haha...
anyways thxs 2 u all~~!!! muakkkkk... : )

v enjoy it~~!!

me n d cake~

make a wish...

blewww~~

OMG~~!! all cream on my face!!!

thx 2 u guys~~

take in d toilet...

5 modern model~~

Happy Chinese New Year~

Happy Chinese New Year~~~

新年快乐~~~

tis year chinese new year is d best!!

sister bc n whole family reunion~!

2 year edi didn reunion

coz sister from UK...

tis whole week i very happy~~

reunion with family, meet with frens, n get many many angpow~

hahaha...

friday,

whole family go 2 eat ’收工酒‘

not bad loh...

koko, heng, jie n me

the New Year's Eve,

i have reunion dinner wif family,

after tis,

abt 11p.m.,

me, bee wen, zi jun, hou yong, chun jiat, yong yee, boon seng, yen san, ai ping, wei yi n his fren,

go 2 c the firework,

tis is my 1st time go 2 c,

coz be4 every time when i reach there,

the firework finish edi,
so tis year,

v go earlier n wait at there...

hoho~

next day is 1st day of chinese new year,

hoho~~

wear new clothes,

get many many angpow,

wakaka...

morning go 2 relative house,

afternon,

i go 2 fren's house,

bee wen, hou yong, yen san, shu fen n yih han come 2 fetch me,

then v go 2 sungai batu,

v go 2 house by house...

n take many photo...

yih han, me, bee wen n hou yong

me, shu fen, hou yong, bee wen n kuang how

2nd day,

morning go 2 relative house,

afternoon met wif nae shing,

but v only chat for abt 1 hour only...

coz she wan bc 2 sitiawan edi...

after tis,

3rd day,

chinese new year just like over edi...

no more activities,

hometown become quiet edi...

huhu...

year by year,

chinese new year become shorter n shorter...

haiz...

anyway,

now is chinese new year,

so cheer up!!!

new year new hope~~!!!